Hello dear readers and fans (I know you’re out there~) it’s been awhile.
As per my last post I am/was in a ‘slump’ a funk of sorts. Everyday was becoming boring, routine, and almost unbearable even. I didn’t want to bore you (kind) readers with the details of my life because “the details of my life are inconsequential” (guess where that quote is from and you win a prize!) Anywho, I’m on the upswing again, that’s life right? Ups and downs a rollercoaster of emotions if you will..
Today I’d like to talk about friends and the companionship that accompanies said friendship. I may have touched on this topic briefly in a previous post so forgive me in advance. I am alone in Korea, well more like ‘on my own’ but more or less the same meaning. It’s not easy being ‘on your own’ especially in a ‘foreign’ country, even if it is my ethnic motherland. I feel homesick at times, mostly missing the things I took for granted while living at home – homemade food, laundry, clean home (thanks to my lovely Grandma), and of course my friends (yall know who you are π ) I came to Korea for personal reasons and so now there’s no looking back. They say variety is the spice of life but what then is monotony? In my humble opinion, I would say monotony is Hell. Now I’m no means the ‘adventurous’ type but I guess coming to Korea is in itself a little ‘adventure’ π
I have a knack for making friends, this dates back to my days at UT while living in the dorms. However, maybe it is due to me making friends so quickly that they ‘go’ just as quickly. I find it difficult to make lasting friendships but I want/need more than just ‘acquaintances’ around me. Therein lies my problem/solution(?) I can sort of ‘weed out’ my acquaintances and the ones remaining basically remain my friends! And of course it is a natural progression that even though we are ‘acquainted’ this can upgrade to friend status. I’m going to leave it at that or I’ll just keep rambling..
The beginning of this semester I had to start anew. I decided I had enough of my previous town and so I wanted to go ‘someplace’ bigger, well I certainly got what I wanted. I am currently in the capital of my province and so it’s a lot more ‘developed’ than said boonies I was in last year. (To be honest though, human greed has no bounds because now I want even more!) Anyways I would like to touch on my friends that I met at the ‘health club’ (aka fitness center/gym). These are real good guys (although one of them KH2 is way too much to handle sometimes, we are of opposite ilk I suppose). I also met a new friend recently (the current roommate of KH2). The moment I saw him the name ‘Sean’ came to mind and so I called him that. (I also had trouble remembering his name but his initials are SC, hmm…sounds so FAMILIAR hmm) Sean liked the name so much he took it for his own. As a result I unknowingly ‘named’ someone and it made me happy! After that I also named KH1 and KH2, Tiger and Jaguar respectively. KH1 is aiming to become a personal trainer and so he wanted a ‘cool’ and unique sounding name that would portray his image. He’s a big guy and reminds me of Wolverine from the X Men so I wanted to suggest Harry but he turned that down…then I thought, hey our Chinese zodiac is the ‘Tiger’ so why not try it? He was immediately impressed and proceeded to give me a ‘tiger hug’ so tight I heard some joints pop (I think they were mine…) As for Jaguar…well he picked that one himself, I kinda wanted to suggest Jackal (because he sort of resembles some sort of wolf creature but…) I guess Jaguar fits because it’s sort of ‘dark and majestic’ kinda how he wants to appear/be. He’s also a rich kid and so maybe one day he will own his namesake in the form of automobile transportation heh heh.
Back to the present, I really like Sean. I think he’s a humble kid and maybe it’s because of my ‘older brother’ nature (and him being younger than me) I like him around me, almost reminds me of my brother back home…I also met Sean at the gym because Jaguar sort of coerced/forced(?) him to come (yeah Jaguar definitely fits that dude well..he’s definitely…I won’t go there in my blog because I try to keep my posts rated G).
It’s Tuesday here deep in the heart of monsoon season and I was feeling shitty (I wonder if that’s rated G, ah whatever~). Work ain’t bad, all I do is show movies until vacation so I’m not ‘teaching’ anything but I’m just so bored and tired. (Sitting/standing around all day can be surprisingly tiring, or maybe I’m just outta shape π¦ ) I took a walk to the nearby National University (because food’s cheap around there and I felt like eating with friends and not..alone) I originally just planned on meeting up with Tiger but Jaguar has a car (not a Jaguar mind you but a Hyundai) and he knew a ‘really good noodle place!’ so we decided to go there, the 4 of us. I thought eating ‘really good noodles’ would cheer me up (cuz I LOVE noodles) but nah I was still in the dumps. To make things worse Jaguar kept making small talk with me and when I’m in the dumps I don’t like to be bothered (it’s a bad habit of mine I know..working on changing it). Anyways after dinner Jaguar went to do his ‘jaguar thing’ aka meeting girls and so the three of us went to eat some ice cream.
We went to Baskin-Robbins because that’s where cool kids go to eat ice cream here in Korea (no Braums here unfortunately, hmm maybe I should START one hahaha~) Tiger knew something was up with me (I tend to show my mood pretty easily, it’s written all over my face apparently) and so he offered to treat ice cream. I just agreed half-heartedly but my inner fatty (or is it outer?) was jumping for joy inside. I chose my ‘favorite’ ice cream called ‘Shooting Star’ (it’s a combination of vanilla ice cream with blue ice cream, cherry filling and POP ROCKS!) I like the Pop rocks, heck I would just eat those if I could but being embedded in an ice cream ain’t too bad either (hmm another thing I could try out in the states if/when I go back) Anyways eating ice cream was a great way to break the ice between the three of us. I’m close to Tiger but Sean’s a relative newcomer but he’s chill so we get all get along~(Jaguar is NOT chill though, I’ll say that straight up..) After eating ice cream and talking it was really therapeutic for me and I learned some more things.
- I need to start reading books again, real books and not comic books…
- Positive thinking is the way to go and
- I need to stop bashing myself so much! I’m a mellow yellow dude and I don’t give a fock about anything.
This is a double-edged sword because sometimes just not giving a fock makes me not want to do..a fock (anything) Hence, I’m a perpetual hamster in a wheel, except this wheel is a wheel of despair. Circling and circling into the abyss…I know it won’t happen overnight but with the help of these friends I hope to overcome and conquer…myself. I’m going to start reading again, positive thinking needs a foundation I’m sure and both my friends have read quite a few books on the topic apparently. I’m gonna roll with it because I’m down with it and I also get jiggy wit it (wait that last one…oh nevermind)
Korea is a cool place, I’ve met some cool people and well, I’m not going to give up. “Can’t stop won’t stop don’t stop” I think those are the lyrics to a K pop song but I can’t remember exactly because they all sort of blend together.
Can’t wait till vacation, I’m going to spend it catching up with various peoples around Korea. I’ll be sure to update yall accordingly~
Good night now,,
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